Lag!

Lol, my laundry is still undone, after 2 weeks and 3 days. Omg! I wonder how i'm living by.
Spent the whole of last night trying to memorise song lyrics and having my own mini karoke session, lol...how cool is that?
After listening to Ravind's theory on imaginery friend, I wonder, am i having this 'imaginery' crush on ...? Lol, I'm thinking it might be true, something to distract you from the studying stress. Life is complicated, if u think too much. So much about keeping it simple stupid.
=l
Talk about appreciating life, think school life is very adhesive, espicially after the 2 years break, i think, I'll be missing the lecture theatres, dunno why, there're my favourite part of school.
=P
Hitting the gym and doing laundry this afternoon, I must, and i will.
=)

Be a man.

Sometimes i really wonder, the army, Singapore, back home, i feel adult-ish, the things i've been doing for the past 2 and a half years, the responsibility expected of you when you were in the army....
I still carry myself around more consciously, of myself and the people around me. Sometimes though, i feel myself slipping back, lol, to being more of a teenager again...it's true, , it's nicer to the less adultish one around, it's fun to have people around who are protective for you. =P --Speak up for you when u get bullied.
Maybe that's one of the reason when i still have nice impressions of the friends i've made in army, i am missing...
Tuas, LFA, lim chu kang and all the stuff we did outfield
I can still feel the dread and grunged-ness we had going outfield,
Geez, still will miss it though
Slipping back into the student life, sometimes you are really glad of the relief of all the responsibilties, right now i have a responsibilty to myself to study, to not letting myself down, how difficult can that be?

Why can men never appreciate things until they've passed him by?
It's really true, no matter how hard you tell yourself to appreciate the moments, to enjoy life as it passes by, many a times, most of the time or all the time, you find that appreciation for something only comes when it has passes us by, many a times, memories are the fondest parts of our life.

Life, love it, like it for the way it is........
Dun bother asking for anything more.............

Life

Is about missed oppurtunities,
and what is meant to be.

Post test

Went for the city tour yesterday, was pretty fun i must say, but i was disappointed over something, lol, shadn't elaborate at this point.
Grocery at safeways after that, it's always fun when you're hungry. That way, lol, you wknow what your stomach really wants.
Joined the lan party last night, kinda like a post test treat, was major fun and i stayed till like 3 plus, plus the lack of quality sleep this whole week, I'm starting to look and feel a little off sorts...thing is...i still can't sleep well at night...
Must clean out my room today, hit the gym and get ready to start the vicious cycle of studying again, lol.

Two things

Finally I'm back, took a break to study for the test yesterday, which didn't end up being so bad.
Cheers.
WEnt out for some post-test celebrations, dinner at mark's place and the of-course-not-to-be-missed gelare at Freddo's. Caught a really funny video later at tim and ravind's place, some parts were seriously seriously hilarious. =)
"clock"-bee-leh..... Lol, can't beat that.
Even typing abt it brings a smile back to my face. Lol.
Weekend's here, can't wait to get some things back into shape, lol, body and room. Not to mention the laundry. Haven't been sleeping very well lately, maybe due to the stress I've been placing on myself lately.
Zzzzzz..
In the mean time, gotta head down for the city tour....
Till later all!

Zzzzz

Been a really long while since i blog, got a test coming on friday, dunno whther to feel excited or not, the days are so tiring and i gotta start studying once i get back.
Gotta really like what you're doing, no joke...
Jl's going back for Nus medical interview in may, hee, can ask her bring back stuff for me, lol, good in a way. =)
Niway i think life is here kinda better than NUS, lol, somehow in singapore the shade of NS still hangs around, even when I'm out or at home, it still feels like I'm in NS, just clearning my leave and all that.
At least here, i feel free-ier, doing things i wun usually get to do, my life has been changed in many ways, ways that may not be clear even to myself atm...
In the meantime....back to the test....
=l

Wee!!!!

Added a new place to my 'blogging spree', the brownless medical library!!!
And i am using my lap top there lol, its so cool.
Studying for the better part of the day today, abit of saturation, that's y i'm here
^_^
Niway, i'm in the library with houston, jiawei and jielin and we all have our laptops with us and are studying anatomedia, on a sunday afternoon, goodness, life is far-out.
Gotta go back to studying, library closing soon.
Gan-be-te!
Lol.

I'm ecstatic!

Wow, combining yesterday and today, my hours of proximal contact with ... has more than doubled.
Firstly, yesterday, with the help og Jl, i sat next to her in lecture!!!!! But no, we didn't talk... But still !!!!, one whole hour!!! And she has a motorola Rzr V3!!!! which she was playing around with throughout the lecture...
*foams*
And then at the tutorial lesson(my first time attending), there she was again!!!!!!!!
Lol, sitting just in front of me, ecstatic, i'd say...
Library today, was there to study anatomedia with jiawei and houston, not expecting any contact.... but...she came over to say hi to jiawei!!!!!
i'm ecstatic, sorry for all the exclaimation marks...
Lol, all that matters for nil i guess, but at least i lifted my own happiness level, lol, back to studying for the upcoming test...and fighting to keep my mind on it...

Ganbete!!!!(thanks tim for the new vocab, or shd i say jl who explained wad it meant)

What goes down must come up..

Hehz, the energy level is going up, just in time for the weekend. So glad, i am.
Rained almost the whole day today, chilling wind, beautiful frosty breaths, the nice wetness...
I'm a freak lol, wonder if anyone else shares my love for the gloom and wetness.
Had a real boring dinner though, scholar's dinner, zzzz, had to put on my pitiful formal wear.
Niway, picked up some facts, 80% of the world wealth is distributed among 20% of the world population, like 2 billion pp dun even have the basic requisite of life, clean water.
Sometimes, we take things for granted, for me, to be blogging here and complaning about studying stress, compared to the little kids out there with no food and water, things i can easily access, i am so blessed. Feel for them, just a little, spare the little moment and space in your heart...
To have study stress is a priviledge, to be able to go to school, meet your friends, smell the fresh air, wake up in your soft cosy bed in the morning....
Life is good...treasure the moments...

Yeah

Chelsea has won again, time for me to say ole again!
Yipee at least sth happy happened today, lol.
Think I'm so dead,lol got quite alot to study, and my mind's not exactly between my head. It;s in uberland, and i really should be sleeping instead of blogging, printing notes at this unearthly hour, especially when i have 8 o clock classes tomolo.
Life is so random, like it, hate it, love it, loathe it.
Word of the day- whatever..

Sob Sob

Sigh, test coming up next friday, this time, i swear I'm feeling the information overload there's so much to study!!! Omg, maybe it's just expected of us to read and not memorise stuff, but still there's so many. Arggh!!
Scream Out Loud!!!!!!!!!!
I feel exasperated, very, and there are so many things distracting me right now on top of this. Dun feel like talking about them, or thinking about it, sigh, it's exasperating!!!!!!!!!!!
Niway haven't heard from so many of you all, how'ya all?
Did a roleplay for ICM today, some paralysed patient, it was sp depressing the mood spread to the whole class, sigh.
So many sighs, and i am studying anatomy in the computer lab right now, life can't get any worse, zzzz, almost rock bottom.
Well haha, in my own words, at least i am looking 'at' this instead of being 'in' this.
=L.....

Oooooh aaaaahhh B-e-a-u-tiful!

Guess what! After a horrendously warm weekend, it's raining now! Massively! It's soooo ....ahh...words fail me!
Arms crossed on the window ledge, chin on my palms, i remained for almost 15 minutes, just admiring the dark clouds that cover the entire sky, the wind howling through the leaves,the rumble of a distant thunder, the darkness, the sound of the rain on the tress, the pavement, the blurry view due to the water droplets, sigh, it's so so beautiful. I suddenly have this sense of fulfilment, the rain has just made my day.
Ahh, so perfectly....gothic?
Was getting pretty much tensed up over school work, and this half an hour break has made me see the light, that i was being just a little too hard on myself for no particular reason. Heck, i was feeling guilty over wasting the odd hour here and there, always imagining someone else studying during the moments i was slacking away. Ahhh, so be it, so be it...
Just....*takes deep breadth*...let it go...
Everything in life is pretty in their own ways..
One just gotta find what one likes...
What's fun anyway? Stimulation to the brain? Sigh, it's amazing how much things we do in the name of fun...
Was looking at my messy room again, thinking about my ideal home......
Sometime with a european touch? Or the simple modern whitish singaporean condo feel? A wooden house by the sea?
SOmetimes....it's nice to dream..
^_^
Back to studying.........

Blogging

BLogger is cursed i tell you.
First i set up a post about how difficult it was to post because of my lousy internet connection, next thing u know, the internet quit on me and i lost my whole post....arggh!!!!
Niway, i had my second clinical visit today, it was so damn boring. It was at the cardiologist, i think the most intersting thing that happenend today was seeing him take blood pressure, well any excitement would have been bad though, lol, wad a cool job i guess. Heart, intersting to blog and think about, lol, medically eh...not so sure....
Just had some tutorials at IHouse, least learned some new stuff, minimal, and only cos i haven't got to them yet. Niway, can't really study on weekdays, weekends....muhahahah....here i come!!!!!!!!!!

Lol

I'm blogging in the schools's comp lab right now, lol to add to my list of locations to i have blogged in...
Houston just found out i have a blog, and is making a meal out of it, how cool can that be when e's righ next to me at the moment. And guess wad? She's nearby!!!! That explains for the hyper mood that i've put on the blog, pardon me....I'm not actually hyper, just what i wish i was feeling right now actually.
Niway, school's just over, i feel so bored, no tests near to perk me up. I'm feeling kinda tired and all that, not been sleeping very well over the past few nights, been having intermitternt sleep and all that, sigh, dunno y la....
Niway, exams should be over for the nus medicine guys, haiz, and my schoool term has just started, xian mu you all man....
Sometimes, i think just being alive/healthy is the happiest thing in life, nothing is as important as being physically here, able to think, feel and react with the environment. All these things i do, i feel for, it only matters as long as i'm here, even if i feel sad, lol, at least i am FEELING sad...that's what matters i guess...
Lol, Houston just reminded me about something funny that happened today, went like this, went toilet, put book on top of big urinal, unzips, books falls in the big big urinal where everyone was peeing in, eeeeeeksss!!!! Picked it up, went straight to the library to return it. It wasn't really wet i think, but i din really dare to take a closer look. Well, managed to 'mark' the book though, wih a few blue touch of thr markers. It was a Rhoades and Phfanzer by the way, well, these are the things u do that will so remind you of what has passed you back. Lol
Suddenly miss the RI days today, especially playing polo back there, lol, miss the pool, the staurday morning trainings, the 'soccer' we did with the polo balls, the people, the carefree ness. Sigh, the teenage years are gone and over, but how true it was, it might always always be the most fun part of my life, lol.
Memories are not glass treasures we keep in a box, sigh, they are kites we fly in the wind, i can reel them back anytime, and I'm adding more and more kites into the sky everyday. Who cares how the kites are, red? blue? happy? sad? Big? Holey? Lol, the more i have, the merrier.... That's life..

I'm back!

Finally back to blogging, after a break of so so long.
So many things have happened, played my first game of soccer over the weekend, did quite alot of studying about how to be a good doctor, lol all in preparation for the ten minutes test i had today.
Easter break felt like a studying break for me, think i spent in studying away, it felt pretty weird, felt like i was clearing leave, no point wasting the time away, so i kinda mug through it.
Niway, took a day off today, or night should i say, just chilling out.
Oh and i go 19/20 for the stupid damn test the other day, so ..., stupid trace element question... jielin got 20 though, i am not happy...lol... well i guess i should be satidfied with my marks, hopefully can maintain...
Today we were learning de stressing methods, and one of them was actually to keep a diary, haha, guess the self reflection, self criticism part is a professionalyy recognised method of de-stressing after all.
Oh well, first day of school was a blur, it was weird going through the classes today, it felt long and short at the same time, before i knew it the end of the day had come, ah such a familiar feeling i should say.
Well, life is about what matters, right now? I should say mugging, so i am going to **** care the rest of the stuff, lol.
Right.
Niway, good luck to all the med pp in NUS eh, hope u all will do well....
Nitez guys!

Swimming

Today i went swimming, was supposed to be fun, but the water was really really cold. Talk about a indoor heated swimming pool. At least i din pay to get in, but i kinda got a headache from swimming in the ice cool water. Not to mention the cramping of my thigh muscles, making me hobble back all the way to Ihouse.
And my phone went down one and a half storey on the spiral staircase and remained unscathed. It's really cool, when i saw it went down, i thought i was over. Well, some things aren't over till it's really over eh. ;p Having went through all my outfield exercises, i really should have more faith it it..lol
Niway school is starting soon, must start studying for the stupid Health Practice test soon, else, i'm so looking forward to classes..
Lol..