When it rain, it rains

Everybody loves somebody at any point in time,
mine just happens to be you,
and only you....
Wish i can hold on to that forever....

=(

Can't sleep,
feel like shit
wish i was stronger.

Feng

THe wind outside is so big,
heavy gusts against the trees,
leaves rustling,
branches swaying,
love the sound of it howling against the window panes,
i feel so calm inside my room,
Malaysia night at dinner today,
wells guess it was just the usual IH dinner as usual,
just that i got infected by the joyous spirit too,
and i looked around and spoke a lil more than i use too..
=)
Wells, maybe there's always a rainbow after the rain..

Love a windy day

Ever felt the wind in your face,
so strong,
you just want to close your eyes,
and let it blow you away,
and just be gone..
in the wind...

I really like this song...
somehow, i can 'feel' what he's trying to express...
and everytime i listen to it..
i'll feel a stir of emotions..
=P

An Jing

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello


An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old


Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear


Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure


Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret


Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do


wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up


Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him


Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much


Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine


Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away


Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away


Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability


An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast


Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

Through the looking glass...

TOday as i prepared to go to the gym,
i realised the door on the glass side
of the gym was no longer in existence.
I made my wat round the building,
to the door on the other side,
it was a different door,
my gym key was supposed to work on it,
but it didn't...
and i had to leave..
As i made my way out again,
i took another look at it through the glass windows,
the gym was exactly the same,
just that a door had gone missing,
the door i had known,
and the new door was in place,
In a way,
the gym i knew was gone...
Things have not changed,
but have they not?
I'm scared...

Isn't it weird

Went out today,
with nowhere to go,
with no one to meet,
except that i knew i had to be out.
Weirder thing have happened...
I'm lost in the woods.
Haha =P

100 years

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15... there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15...there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live...

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15... there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15... I'm all right with you
15...there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live...

Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15... there's still time for you
22...I feel her too
33... you're on your way
Every Day's a new Day

15... there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15... there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

=l

There are things in life,
you always have to try for,
there are things in life,
you just cannot let go,
there are things in life,
which brings you to your knees,
and your face into the mud,
but
there are also things in life,
which can make you smile,
May we all live with hopes in our hearts..

=/

No matter how difficult it is,
I will rather take all the shit,
than give anyone shit,
because that is the way,
things are supposed to be.

Wandering daze..

How big can the human heart get?
Do we always know ourself best?

Secretly humbled

By all the clinical attachments.
There's just so much I've got.

A nice blog entry

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do.
One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever.
Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: Let's play hide and seek!

All of them liked the idea and immediately..
Madness shouted: I want to count, I want to count! And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed.
Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: One, two, three...

As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a pile of garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the center of the earth. Lie said that it would hide under
a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking.
And Madness continued to count: ... seventy nine, eighty, eighty one...

By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love.
For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide.
And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love.

Madness: ...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven...
Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.

And Madness turned around and shouted: I'm coming, I'm coming!

As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the center of the earth.

One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.

Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love.
Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush.

Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of
blood from his eyes.

Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork.
What have I done! What have I done! Madness shouted. I have left you blind! How can I repair it?

Love answered: You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide.

So it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving...
there are some love that don't go away...
but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go.
Somebody who cherishes you forever.
(*"*)
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means alot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, A day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. How i hope to suffer from amnesia.
(",)
Someday you may find someone you love more than me. . . But you' ll never find someone who love you as much as I do.



Always loved this blog post, glad i found it again, haha, i think it's cute.
Abit of the childhood kind of love, yet with certain truth in it.

What is fate then?
All our lives, fate deals her hand,
and we follow.
Maybe in certain myseterious ways, our lives are indeed mapped out for us.
The people we are meant to meet,
the people we fall in love with,
the people who will play a bit role in our lives,
the people who will stay with us all our lives,
the people who will pick us up when we fall,
the people who we will never get to know better,
the people who guide us when we're lost,
maybe everything that happened,
was meant to be ...
Why fight something/someone we cannot win,
and feel despair and desolute,
when things do not turn out the way we think it should,
and miss the prettiness,
of the simple roadside flower,
perhaps everything,
was meant to be...
Life is a story of acceptance,
rather than one of doubts and denials.
Life is beautiful,
instead of bittersweet.
Life is not about dreams,
but keeping your feets on the ground.
Life is about appreciating what you have,
instead of chasing what might have been.
Life is about chasing the future,
instead of digging up the past.
Life is about creating beautiful memories...
Life is about finding a sense of belonging...
Life is about finding someone to love...
Life is about finding someone to love you back...
Life is about...
Liking it as it is...
^_^
In a preachy mood again, many times, i think we are victims of our own thoughts and insecurities, we imagine things to be otherwise they ought to be. There are some things which i may have felt so strongly, but i can still convince myself otherwise.
Am i thinking more clearly? Or am i being plain stupid. I think many times we end up being unsure, and frustrated with ourselves. And life seems so miserable cause we've suddenly lost our sense of direction.
And we will only find our way,
when we decide to start looking for it again.

A grey afternoon

In my room,
a grey, windy, afternooon,
thick stacks of hp notes,
boredz.

Long pracs and pricking

Had w long pracs yesterday and today, am so tired...zzz
First was the temperature control prac, poor me ended up as the 'subject',
more like lab rat, haha as my prac gp would put it.
Was wrapped up in 3 layers of blanket, and had my feets immersed in hot water.
And there i had to stay for the next hour plus plus, sweating and still getting
'measured'...
At least my gropu members were kind enough to have a chat with me, starting with
en en, then sue faye, then the rest of the ang mohs. Apparently, the way i was wrapped up was a mixture of funny, cute and intersting. And there were claims of me looking like i was wearing a tudong.... And apparently en en knows of the existence of my blog, and told me to write abt my experience in a tudong. Wellz...
come to think of it, dunno why i haven't been talking to the 'rest of the singaporeans' much, haha other than those in the main group... so it was refreshing talking to en en for a change...
=/
Not to mention them trying to take countless shots of me in the 'tudong', but were all taken with my phone though... wells, at least some others had fun during the prac...
Met jl in the library after that, she's been getting so little sleep lately =(, very worrying... And then we walked back to cs, drooping by the fish and chips store to get a burger and some sushi, which seems to be my favourite dinner these days... And then she just had to beat me at this thumb pressing game once more and again...
Even after fasting for the whole day, her thumb was still "stronger." =( One day, I may win... =P without her letting me win of course. =)
ANd todayz, it was the glucose tolerance test... Poor us had to 'prick' our fingers five times... and squeeze out the blood each time. Still haven't gotten over my fear of needles/blood completely, but since even girls did it, (someone in particular), it was simply a matter of fact of getting things done the 'man' way.
^_^
"Poei just has to be brave."
Hiaks Hiaks Hiaks.....
Was the first to do everything though, haha, "fierce" abit.
The lactose i took made me a little queasy though, it was like drinking ...a precipitate of flour and stuff. =(
Yucks.
Back for the weekend, =/,
zzzz, boredz, sianz
gotta start on the hp assignment,
and some studying..
Gan-be-te!?!?
=P

I think

love is a feeling that is subconsciously felt,
a feeling that can never be defined,
close your eyes and you can feel it sometimes,
love is about
feeling his/her presence even when they are not there,
knowing that he/she exist gives you strength,
doing the things you would otherwise never have done,
leaving a special place in your heart.
Sometimes i think,
there is a a little house in my heart,
a little house where she stays,
somedays she comes out and accompany me,
somedays she just wants to stay in the house,
and somewhere in my heart,
there are tombstones too,
of the pp i use to like,
buried in the soil,
but they'll not disappear,
and i'll walk by the cemetary sometimes......

What a weird post,
omg,
I'm going mad......

Cold

I felt the cold today, one of the few times i ever did.
The chill wasn't too unbearable, but.. it wasn't pleasent.
Seeped right through your clothes, right to the core...
Got moody in the afternoon too, but i've snapped out of it i guess.
School's passing so fast, it's already the fourth week...
Dunno whether i should be happy or not..
We're almost 1/3 of the way through the sememster...
Two pracs coming up on tommorrow on friday.. =(
I want to cry le...
Think i need a mini "escape" from things, haha,
but 'where art thou?'
=/
Sometimes, haha, only when it's lonely, there's Jay Chou voice to soothe me =)
By the time i come back haha, i'd memorise all his songs...
=/
Not so sure about the singing though..haha
Why are we made the way we are?
Insecure...
Must chiong pbl today.
=/
Jia you!

Life

Is about writing the most beautiful story,
one that lives up to all your imaginations,
your wildest dreams,
your greatest desires,
your craziest demands,
your biggest fantasies...
Is about finding the most beautiful love,
someone who you will do absolutely anything for,
and someone who will do absolutely anything for you...
One day when i get married,
it must be with someone,
who can ask of me to follow her to the top of Everest and have a picnic,
and i will follow,
and whom i can ask of to take the plunge into the icy waters of the Atlantic for a swim,
and she will follow......
Use a whole heart to love,
and find a whole heart to love u back......
No one can be perfect,
but love can be,
and so can life......

Lemon chicken day

Is the day, we tried making lemon chicken.
Squeeze squezeze, the poor lemons..
And with the bowl of lemon juice, there was the honey and the flour...
Wells, in the end it was still so lemony...
But sweet, maybe it's because of the person squeezing it. =P
Tried cooking it another way too, turned out to be sticky lemon chicken..
Wells, there was always the good ol vegetables to fall back upon anyways.
Great funz.
^_^

Living

In a goldfish bowl,
is nice,
if there is another goldfish,
swimming next to you.....

honey oats

is delicious...
another thing,
another day,
to remember things by.
Hah.
^_^

Fog

Walking in the fog,
it's blurry ahead,
can hardly make out where i'm going,
i see a lonely figure ahead,
and i walk up next to her.
The look on her face was sad,
and we didn't speak...
And for a while,
it was just her footsteps and mine,
step by step,
in the fog...
The sands of time creep silently by,
and she's still right by me for now,
i can feel her presence,
her heartbeat next to me,
but sometimes i turn around,
and i think i can't see her face...
She keeps me going,
her company makes me strong,
times of laughter,
times of tears,
but i'll never know,
what is it,
that lies ahead...
"Does she sees me in the fog?"
We might get lost,
and seperated in the gloom,
or she might take my hand,
to walk together through the fog..
Foggy time it is,
for a boy to learn,
how to be,
more like a man...

"Kiss From A Rose"

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grave
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.