Amazing what msn can offer on penguin love...

"I would like to have all the rest of the world disappear," she said, "and live with you here." "It won't disappear," he said. They went almost in silence through the lovely wood. But they were together in a world of their own.

Friends

There is no need,
for friends to say sorry to each other...

Musical

THe day we all dressed up abit,
and it felt as if we were adults,
many years down the road,
on another cold and starry night,
in another place another time,
wound the company still be the same?
I certainly hope so...
wouldn't want it to change,
not for anything anyone can offer.
For now,
that's all I have to be contend with...
^_^

Hmmm

I feel more and more at peace as the days go by..
Hmmm...
Like everything is surreal...
hopes it lasts...

So many things

Have been happening,
and i've come to realise,
that it has only made things ...
clearer,
and stronger...
Sometimes,
you search so hard for an answer,
that is right in front of you.
^_^

Love

Love
Is patient and
does not stragulates,
but gives space and time...
Love is understanding,
and does not seek to deceive,
but tries to accomodate..
Love is beautiful,
in its own special ways...
Love is unrestrictive,
and has no borders...
Love is a feeling,
that couples share...
Love is not about possessing,
but letting go when you have to...
Love is never painful,
as love is never about just you...

=/

Was on my way back to IH, before i realised that today was formal dinner day, and i was too late to make it back in time.
I was halfway back, in the middle of nowhere, without cash, so i decided that i had to make my way down to ol' lygon street and safeway to grab some food.
On a path i thought i knew well, i made a huge circle, pass trinity and uni, before i atually reached my destination. Sometimes you think you know where you are, but that's when you realise that it wasn't the correct way.
And pass Tin alley, i had to step into a puddle, and 1 sock got soaked, so i had to walk around with a squishy sock. BUt i was too hungry and cold to care, haha. Upon arriving at safeway all the familiar aisle, i grabbed some croissant, carrots and canned tuna.
Sian and hungry liao, i bought another tuna sushi on the way out, before i embark on the journey back, completing this huge circle i had made. Making all these long walks in the cool and quiet night helps me think about alot of things, and i decided to take a slow stroll today, despite my wet sock. I was contented munching on my croissant, having the stars in the sky to pei wo. They are so beautiful, and always there to accompany people to make their way home. And of course my favourite star was there, lol, the one that is lowest and brightest in the horizon, eh, technically lowest amongst the houses and tress.
So many things to think about, it wasn' particularly enjoyable, but it was special. It wasn't particularly lonely, cause i had companions in the sky and within.
Well, it's probably just another night to forget,
just another normal walk,
but today is the day,
in which i dressed funny.

Saw this online...made me smile...

One song can spark a moment,
One flower can wake the dream.
One tree can start a forest,
One bird can herald spring.
One smile begins a friendship,
One handclasp lifts a soul.
One star can guide a ship at sea,
One word can frame the goal.
One vote can change a nation,
One sunbeam lights a room,
One candle wipes out darkness,
One laugh will conquer gloom.
One step must start each journey,
One word must start each prayer.
One hope will raise our spirits,
One touch can show you care.
One voice can speak with wisdom,
One heart can know what's true.
One life can make the difference.
One soul with you to eternity.

Always

You're always by my side,
and no matter where i am,
and in EVERYTHING i do,
i drift back to beside you.
So many things are so unclear,
the only thing i know,
is that i don't want to lose you,
and everything that we have.
And i don't want to think anymore.

=/

It's so difficult to keep so many things within yourself,
sometimes it gets so painful,
that it hurts,
and you cry.
And the harder you try,
the more difficult it gets.
But no matter what you cannot and should not show it,
cause it's not nice to spread unhappiness around,
and life is more than about just you,
there's always somebody else too.
Must try your best to remain normal,
to be alright,
that is the greatest promise you can give,
to all the people around you.
At the end of the day,
will everyone get what they want and yourself with nothing,
or will you get everything and some others with nothing,
either way,
you do not win.
And nobody loses.

What was...what is...

I feel weird, it's hard to describe what it is, it just feels weird...
And isn't it weird how some things just creep up upon you without you realising it? Just so slowly and surely...
Another paradox(cryptic) message,
And arn't there times,
when everything means for nothing,
but there are also times,
when everything means for everything and more.
And everything might mean so much to somebody,
but mean nothing to sombody else.
Life is a journey,
and advices can only lead u and guide you so far,
the rest of the lessons,
are from your experiences and interactions,
what good is a life,
if you did not make you own decisions,
be they wrong or right,
as long as u followed your heart,
and there is no regret,
thats when you live.
Took another walk down "memory lane" today,
it was familiar and unfamiliar at the same time,
felt a little weird sometimes...
I've been on it so many times,
and everytime i'll feel differently,
think differently,
maybe one day,
it'll be more normal..
Maybe i'm just not used to being back in melbourne..
Have u ever wondered,
if all the small things really add up,
and the small things mean the most,
then what happened to the end product?
I have no mood to study now,
but no! I'm not a lost little boy(rumours),
and the sky outside is a mix of blue and purple,
and then the night falls,
i really wish,
i could get lost in the stars,
i really wish,
that somehow my shadow could become you.

Just remembering things

Hmmm, figured i should write about how i spent my last few days at least.... haha must admit it was quite fun to be back in melbourne and going to all the places which seemed to be familiar but not unfamiliar still...
Let me see...
Saturday:
Went to Queen Vic Market, to look for fruits/vegetables... were looking for like good bargains as usual, and ended up with loads of strawberries... And one auntie even "forced" onto us 2 packets of strawberries.. she practically shoved it into my hands... Wells haha, still a bargain... And then there was kiwis, mini oranges and onions, which looked like white potatoes... And halfway along the way back, after deciding to stay at Treshermans for lunch, it started to rain so very heavily. And all we had was a mini semi spoiled umbrella. Lol, and we had to walk against the howling wind half the time, and you just felt like u were going to be blown away...... Well, at least the umbrella didn't die on us haha...and made it back in one piece, quite so very wet on one leg of the jeans.... and for some oddball reason, only over the outer calf region...
And then went melburne central at 4 plus, jl had a lens appointment. And we reached the huge clock at 5.04 pm, and managed to see the part inside the huge clock(2 dwarfs and 2 pigeons) being revealed, and there was this pleasent and nice flute peaceful flute music... And then at 5.05pm, they had to return to their home inside the big clock, so we went down, to coles to get some water and then where else, the pet shop =P And the dog made a tiny dog made a tiny hole in jl's hot pink jacket, but somehow din leave its smell on her =( And 1h later, i just had to see the huge clock again, and though it came out again, it wasn't as nice as the 5pm one that we first saw. Haha, things are probably just a matter of perception i guess, and the 5pm one on 16th July will be the nicest..And the one i will always remember.............
=P haha, though it's always the same, haha, even as i am blogging. =P Then we went back for dinner, grilled fish , many many rice, herbal chicken and wacthed movie...
Sunday:
Was pretty tired initially, think it was because of the jet lag and lack of sleep from the day before, but after running a while in the gym, felt abit more energetic =P And after that, i was reading a couple of nice books whilst waiting for the hour long shower queen to be done. But the books were really quite nice haha, maybe should read more self help books next time =/ And then at about noon, met up with jiawei as well, and we decided to go town/crown for yong tau fu. And i finally got my new pre paid card, and jl got her plan changed to some cap 49 plan, and she was so happy with what she got that she couldn't stop smiling... Went down towards crown where we somehow entered some street market where we saw lots of things, magic tricks, accessories, paintings and charlotte. Lol. And our "trip to nowhere" somehow didn't materialise. And then it was off to crown for dessert at Greco's, (quite horrible, esp the $5.50 preserved fruits), wandering around boutiques, dinner at Macs, arcade, just walking around, and met up with Tim and Ravind after that. Walked around in some "bargain shop" where jl tried out some bags and cap(forever friend look), and tim and ravind tried on some shirts. And after that, somehow, we trekked out way back from Crown all the way back home, walk walk walk. =) Lose alot of weight =P
Monday:
First day of school!!! Sian liao, pbl la, lectures in Sunderland, =(, wonder if we'll ever see the Public Lecture Theatre again, even if we do, it will be so differnet liao, one sem only, and i have so many memories of the place, where everyone was sitting, i can still imagine myself sitting inside it down, waiting for the lectures to start especially, somehow Sunderland theatre still abit unfamiliar now, must pei yang kan qing with it again haha.... I miss PLT!!!!!
=( But Sunderland got backdoor entry, quite cool haha...
Tuesday:
Day that i fnally shaved and cut myself on the lip. =( Cause morning had to rush around =P Hmmm, but i made good time haha, brush teeth, wash lunchbox, change clothes, then shave!(haha siao liao), pack sandwich, and still rush there couple of minutes early! Haha, but it didn;t stop bleeding till quite long, and there was a scab there for the remaninder of the day. =( Lesson learnt: If got alot of things to do, wake up earlier haha. Or else hurt yourself only. And then later studied over at jl place, but quite ineffective, and we ended up watching some korean drama and eating oranges. Dinner time was quite hectic though, but the most notable thing were the chicken organs, wet and beany rice and the ultra smelly pot of rotting food we had to clean... Then it was Simpson and abit of chatting....

Times

Arn't there times, when u just feel that the world is just so big and you're just so small, a small small bit part...
Just so small, so small....
Until you become ...nothing... haha
=P

Love this quote

From a nice book i was reading,
"Love u a little more than yesterday, a little less than tomorrow, for the rest of our lives."
^_^
So true!

Last day

In Singapore... 3 weeks passes so fast..
It's back to my other reality =P
Away from warm land, back to cool land.
Haha.
Haf fun guys, either you're here or there.
It's inside that matters.
^_^

Married

Is finding someone you cannot live without,
and someone whom without everything in the world means for nothing.

Tori Q!

If there's one food i'll miss from singapore, it'll be Tori Q! Lol, there's not been a recent trip to town without me eating Tori Q!
I'm just absolutely in love with the japanese rice.
^_^

From fantastic 4

"Every man dreams of a woman he can give the world to."
"All the accomplishments in the world means for nothing if you do not have someone to share them with."
"All my life i've made many risks, taken many leaps. And before you i stand, ready to take the biggest step in my life. I have just 4 words to say."

=)

Super fun dinner yesterday, with zhong, shiming and zhiwei. I still have a knack for calling some pp by their surnames, haha it's a lil rude and awkward but it's like a nickname!!! lol, k la, and it's easier to shout a one syllable name then two when playing sports. Anyway, zhong and shiming were seniors from waterpolo by just a year. =) It's amazing how melbourne made me appreciate and talk to my friends more, i mean if i were in singapore i wun actually bother to meet up with them, there's always the fact that pp are always there. But now that i'm back, i just had to see some of them before i go. =)
Anyway, it was so nice to talk to them again, appearance wise i think everyone's pretty much the same, and of course we had much fun diaoing each other. Haha zhiwei, i can sttill remember the conversation abt your past relationship... and shiming's and zhong's comments. =P
SM:"the 2 years in JC were the most difficult times to communicate with you."
Z:"i have no comments"
SM:"it must be for the better...." (on hearing you're attached)
I just couldn't stop laughing =P
And there was the part about zhong wanting to pian cai, pian she, and pian hai zi! lol. Actually i added the last part, but haha, that was sooo funny too.
Wells, it was fun, haha, and good ol fun comes every once in a while.
=)

Busy wk

Got so many things to do, and so many things to buy.
I must not go out shopping so often, all the nice things keep on screaming out to me, and i am such a nice person i tend to want to bring them back home with me .
Currently my wishlist is soooo long, I've gotta cut down on my expenditure!
Haha okies, and i still need a haircut, my hair looks more like a mane now...thinking of highlighting it a lil too, not sure abt the colour, but we're young only once!!!! Must pull some stunts once in a while...
And before i forget, a big happy birthday to all the july babies, jiawei, tim and weiyong...sorry if i miss anyone else out, but happy 21st!

Chew and swallow

Life is never easy, but who said that it was difficult.
Sometimes, we search too hard for something, which might be just in front of our eyes.
Sometimes,when we're abit blur or if we do not reach out for it, happiness might slip us by.
Some things are important, some things seem important, but how do we know for sure what is important?
Help, is never far if you reach out for it.
=P
Went mini steamboat with my sis and mum, then walked around parkway abit, my there's so much places to eat there. And there was a mini downpour in the afternoon, the dark clouds were so beautiful. =)
Going town today with andy too, =) better hurry or i'll be late.
Will be back with a post.
*Grinz*
Still thinking =P

All rise

Do we get judge by what we were, what we are, or what we will be?

Old blog entries

Went to read some of my friend's old blog entries, and a couple of mine..
It's amazing how our thoughts evolve, and how some feelings, perceptions, focus, change...
We change subtuely, as a result of interaction with people around us, with our environment, and many a times we do not even feel or notice the change, until it escalates in a series of events when things are clearer to you. And then u sit back and think to yourself, " Hmmm, i've come a long way since then"
Was just reading my own blog entries from a few months back, and my, i was so different then! And there's always so many things u felt u wouldn't have done in hindsight and so many things u felt u could have done more. It's scary to think of how i'll be like in 6 yrs time, hah but 1 thing that wun change is friendship i guess. I think back to my primary sch, sec sch, jc yrs, army yrs, and all my friends are still my friends and though we've all changed and it may have been a while since we've seen each other. =) And of course all my uni friends, we have a long long journey ahead, in a place far far away from home, haha, it'll be a fun, meaningful, eventful and fruitful part of our life...
Anyway, i failed my driving again, this time the comments from the tester, "your driving skills are good, no question, but safety part, you're not there yet.." Think i drove too fast and "recklessly", i think i gave him the impression that i'm a young "punk" and have a "want to win" attitude. =( so sad...
Had a pretty enjoyable session at kbox with tim and youwei though, lol, tim was singing to all the wu yue tian songs, and i was massacering all of jay chou's songs. I dunno whether it was actually that bad, but haha, singing is a great way of reliving tension and stress, arggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lol.
And new specs and shades in the evening, =P . The frames are really of a oddball colour, haha and they have this lens they claim that will change colour with exposure to sun, mine's suppose to change to blue by 50%, wells. I'll wait and see haha..
^_^

It's a sad day

Terrorist attacks strike London, and so many innocent people were kiled, with over a thousand wounded. Less than a day after winning the 2012 Olympivs bid, the bombs were detonated, abit of a conicidence? How easier to gain world publicity.
People were killed in trains and buses, people who never suspected that they were going to die, people who were jsut taking the public transport in the morning, going off to work, having just spent the night with their families, and maybe had breakfast with them, and now they will never see each other again... All these innocent people, never suspecting, their lives, their families lives wrecked all because of some screwed up terrorist groups..
How can the world be fair, if so many innocent people die.. I know there's no end to comparison, but these kind of incidents always leaves me with a sick feeling.
=(
Amidst all the sorrow and hurt, i hope they'll find their own peace...

OMG =P

Cecilia cheung is on tv now! And she's talking about her life.
She speaks chinese btw, not very well though.
First romance at 13. Lasted one day. Cause her sister had a bf and she though she needed one too.
Never went after a guy, only been chased after.
Quizzed, "if u meet a guy u really like..."
Cecilia: " i believe he will go after me, i will exude my charms...and he will come after me!"
poei:"i believe!"
Quizzed, "what if u fall in love with your best friend's husband"
Cecilia: "Integrity, i just won't"
Quizzed, "previous relationships?"
Cecilia: "All my previous boyfriends were too into me, much more than i was into them."
Quizzed, what do u think of edison chen?
Edison Chen-"He likes everyone."
And later in the show, "he won't get angry at me, cause he knows i am joking. And...he loves me ma..."
poei: lol
More interesting facts, she started working to prove to her mum she was not a worthless bum.
Respects her parents alot.
Loves money. =P
She's never gotten a telephone from any hongkong superstars!
And she doesn't have much friends, none among all celebrities.
She cooks well.
She is still smarting from Ekin's Cheng comments about her being fat.
She will love her kids more than her husband. Cause she feels men may not be with her forever, while her kids are hers forever.
Omg, i hope all girls are not like this, i will do the exact opposite...

Maybe i will sleep well tonight,
zzzz
^_^

What if......

I was thinking, maybe if one day i were to lose my memory, how would it be like?
Maybe i'd need a diary, to keep me reminded of the life i use to have. Or maybe reading my blog could trigger off something too, a reminscent of what's left.
Or maybe if i were to disappear, or die, what would i have left behind in this world. My clothes, my stuff? Memories in my friends' minds? Will my absence be felt for long? Or maybe blogger wun crash, and my blog will remain here for a while, then people wun forget me or something.
It's quite scary to think that when people die, they'll stay at the age, that stage, life moves on for all the people they know, but they are left behind, in a stagnant world of their own?
Why am i thinking morbid again, haha, i need to calm down..
But's it's so freaking warm!!!!
Help....

Be with you

Watched it the second time round today, with my sister. Wasn't as fantastic as the first time round, but it was still good though. =P
Think the morale of the story was, love is just about to be with, just being around sombody, there is no such thing as being a burden, and sharing each other's lives is the most wonderful thing that can happen. No one can be a burden, love is about the insecurities, the imperfections and the things you never could have imagined.
Love, in other words, is unconditional.
^_^ Sometimes, i just wished that life could be so beautiful like the way it is portrayed in the movies.
And is there really a perfect somebody out there to share your life with?
Maybe I live in another world...
Anyways, I also learned that there are 4-5 Mango outlets in town alone. How cool is that?
Haven't done much shopping, i should actually be glad i have not spent much actually, but all that could change in a couple of days. =P
Can't sleep well, maybe it's the weather, i feel a headache creeping up on me recently, and i've been having weird dreams, weird i must emphasize, not particularly happy or sad...

Sleepless night...

About crunching orange seeds. =P
Off to driving, so sianz...

Ah Yo Ah Hees

Halfway through my stint back in Singapore, now I'm just counting the days to go back to melbourne. =)
Sis went to have two teeth removed, =P , now complaning abt the 'gap' in her mouth, well there's 2 more teeth to be removed, maybe she will get really huge gaps in her mouth then. On the other hand, my wisdom tooth is kinda growing sideways too, hope it doesn't give me too big a problem.
Been going to the gym and taking driving lessons, hopefully I'd have put on a lil weight by the time i go back, and pass driving!!! Lol, getting rusty ...
Zzz, my instructor claims i drive "timidly", well sometimes i dun get it, whats the difference with being timid and careful? Sigh, thats the way it is with alot of things, sometimes you are being timid, and other times you're just being careful. Why has there to be fine lines between so many things... If only life could be so much more simpler, than human beings would be such more happier creatures.
Well, tutorial groups for next sem are out.. Nopes I'm not "where i want to be", but heys, guess what, "little swallow" is in my pbl gp... Jiawei, u better be treating me to more meals next sem.
=P

On Straits times today =)

Life is full of what ifs,
What if you could capture the life u want to live?

A simple smile...

Open your eyes and see the world,
open your ears and hear the birds sing,
open you heart and let it float away with your dreams.
Life is about the pretty small things,
the simple 'miracles',
the patter of the rain drops on the windows,
the shuffle of footsteps on the sidewalk,
the blossoming of a rose,
the joy in the smile of a child,
the warmness in a hug of a loved one,
the freshness of the morning breeze,
the orange hue of the sunset in the horizon,
the sparkle of the stars against the velevet shroud,
the companionship of people when u take a fall,
the resounding heartbeat when love knocks...
Never allow yourself to cease to be amazed,
even if u do,
know that at least you're just searching for something,
that is right in front of you.
Everything can be within reach if u reach out for it...
Life is not a long lost dream,
but a search for evermore...
Close your eyes for just a moment,
to take a rest and savour the lingering tastes
I hope, I dream...
I'll spread my wings and fly away...

Secrets

Why do people keep secrets?
Why can't everyone be honest to each other?
Cause everyone is insecure.
Even the people at the top.
Or sometimes they just dun want u to know.
Sometimes.
Starting driving lessons tomolo, i hope this time i'll pass.
Chalet on saturday-army friends.
Roy's bd party on sun, cool, happy 21st!
Been exercising everyday, cause i have nothing better to do.
The weather's a killer though, i feel like i'm swimming in a pool of warm/hot water.
Jacelyn tay's engaged too, haha all the singaporean celebs r retiring into motherhood soon.
Need to get some clothes and gifts soon, prob not this week though, and photos!!!
=P
I hope, life won't be so complicated.
Anymore.