ZZZzzzzZZZ...

It is always mine to give,
never yours to take.
It is always yours to give,
never mine to take.
Lol, in abit of crazy mode, think the doing-nothing-but-studying is getting to me abit...not that i am really studying very hard atm it's just that it's the only thing i've been doing. Can get a little crazy sometimes....
And there's no internet access as well, for 3 days, i'm going mad.
Gotta study hard, be more focused...
Shall try......
Lol, dear friends, so long......

Wad a week....

Am out of internet quota, had 200 mb this morning, came back and they were gone, ouch!
Thanks to houston, I'm still able to blog. Living on borrowed time literally, lol.
Week was fun, loadsa things happened.
People got high and red on champange orange.
Jiawei and his green ping pong balls.
Liverpool winning the champions league.
Jiawei sleeping over in my room.
Gathering over at Tim&Ravind 's place for dinner.
Jl'm mum coming over to union house to send her lunch.
Last week of lectures for the sem!
Loads of other stuff.

Hardly believe the Sem is almost over, it's been so quick, and eventful.
Learned new things, found myself a little bit more i have.
Life, a journey that never ceases to turn up new stones.
Everyday, I find a little bit more about myself.
Everyday, I change a little...
Everyday, I live a little more...
It's the final streach for this sem everyone ^_^
Chins up,
Let's cross this final hurdle.
Since Liverpool won the champion's league,
Shall end off with their motto...
"You'll never walk alone..."
Cheers everyone!

Pinkland II

One day at work, Ben met Pam.
Pam, tall, fair and elegant.
There was this mutual flirting...
Next day, Glioma moved into the meighbourhood.
Sultry hot figure, killer looks, drop dead gorgeous.
Ben had a nice long talk with her.
Penny.... *busy studying*
(And binging on chocolate)
Penny gave Ben this heart shape tattoo,
to sigbolize their love.
Alas, life is not perfect.
Even tattoos fade...
What will become of Ben, Penny, Pam and Glioma?

PinkLand Story!!!

Ben, tall dark and handsome.
Penny, slim, beautiful and graceful.
Lives happily in pinkland,
Stuck together at the hip.
Instant mutual attraction...
Alas, life is not perfect.
Especially in pinkland.
Ben matured and became more charming.
Penny's beauty slowly withered.
(Under the intense pressure put on her be her mistress)
Ben's eyes start to wander.
Ben met P one day.
And P showed him the world.
Ben starting thinking about his life, his one life.
Ben finds himself more as the days goes by.
Back in pinkland,
Ben starts to think true happiness lies outside pinkland....
To be continued...

The ultimate goal in life...

Is to find someone who will live and die with you..
The "no need to think" type,
someone who will join me in the icy waters of the Atlantic,
someone to jump off the top of the world together.
Dun wanna think,
wanna just feel.
Am i up to it?
Will i find her?
Or will it be just a dream?

Life

Is tragic beautiful...
Stupid thought just came up to me as i was reading my notes...
If i were kate winslett in titanic, and i were to love leonardo di caprio as much as he loved me, why would i have stayed on that stupid plank?
Poor leonardo, was it worth it for the fleeting romance?
Was he doing it because it was the "man" thing to do?
Was he stupid?
Was it love?
And kate...she really should have joined him in the water, i really dun buy the "live your life well, for me" that kind of crap...
If she had loved him as strongly as he had loved her, there is no way she would have stayed on the plank...at least that's wad i believe..
Or maybe she was testing to see how much he would do for her, to test his love, then oops...he died...
lol...
For all i beleive, they would have been better off feeding the deep sea creatures together.
Maybe that's y guys r the ones who go to war...can't expect the girls to die...
Boys must do the stupid things, like die, lol...
Nvr die, no face mah...
Haiz, getting bonkers...
Need to get out...!!!
=/

The one thing in life

that matters is that when u go, people will remember you. Hmmm maybe people is wrong,
maybe it's only one person, maybe it's a couple...
Well, whats so scary abt death? As long as i know i will be remebered, and when we all cease to remember, there's no point in me being around either.
?
?
=p

The stars walk me home...

It's one of those days when u feel so jaded with life... when everything's just a monotonous grey and time slips by slowly, when things happen but it doesn;t really registers...It' of those days when your purpose in life seems ever so obscure and u wonder to what means am i pursuing... y am i studying? Wad is it that i am really trying to achieve? Sigh, just feel a little lost sometimes...

"The true reason y I study hard"

Is that I know I will love my family, and I want the best for them.
I want to get good results, cause I know it will affect my career, maybe being successful and earning money is a way of showing love too.
“If I meet HER and she were to tell me that we could survive on love and eating grass,
I might just go off with her, leave my studies and work. What matters more than that? To find someone to eat grass and leaves with? One life!”
*Stops dreaming…. *
Well, if one day I disappear, at least u guys will know y, can’t say for sure, but it just might happen. Or if u guys see me eating grass in Timbuktu, know that I am happy at least. Lol.
In the meantime, back to the reality of exams…

Think this is a post i will look back at go LOL, as in seriously, but heck, thats wad a blog is for, =)...

Sometimes, i really wonder how much , how well we mask our emotions. There is so much considerations, so much consequences, sometimes i think humans are so suppressed. Well, that makes us what we are. On a lighter note, if we arn't, Tim would have stabbed Monkey some time ago.

Nitez pp, pardon my random rumblings...

At the starting line...

Yo at the starting line of the race, we all are. Turtles, rabbits, hamsters whatever. We're all there now. Lol, the whistle has just blown, and some pp has started moving, others are still strecthing. No doubt, some will reach the finshing line first, but there's no doubt either that we're all be there at the finshing line ...Lol, what a weird analogy for the end of sem exam, getting abit cranky...
Meantime, did laundry, skimmed through robbins(found alot more stuff to zap, sorry tim and jl =P ) in the gym, did some workout, and had the most horredous dinner u could get, small piece of pork with lotsa fats, potatoes and suspiciously old broccoli. Eeew. So lucky i ate. =)
Room's still in a mess, but heck, day's been hectic enough liao, probably another day...
Zzzz...

Misty

So kewl today, it's so misty outside, if only it was a tat darker, that wud be so purfect.
Abit at the zzz state,
heck it's prep time for exams,
dull the senses,
try to study...

Another page turns...

Finished my test, wasn't too pleasant but heck and exams are coming up in 3 weeks time. That's what's crystal clear right now.
Had a pretty plesant day today, played soccer for the whole afternoon, met jl and jh and jw, lol, went trinity for dinner, got busted and had to settle for ihouse. Then it was to safeway for goodies(actually we went to buy tapes but there wasn't), think i bought quite abit of food, plus some extras..lol.
Soccer is so fun, especially when u play with people with some standard, pretty enjoyable when i could fling myself ard and get muddy, it's fun being the goalkeeper. =P Sometimes i think it reflects my life a little, remember when i was playing polo in my lower sec school days, the thrill of the game was in scoring, the exhiralation in attacking the opponent's goal, of putting the ball into the back of the net. Now, i'm kinda like enjoying the defending part, protecting the goal... just enjoying the game from the back..... Being keeper is nice, it doesn't matter if u let in a goal, what matters is whether u 've a good(your best) attempt in trying to save it.
Weird, maybe i am getting a little jaded with life eh, at 20!
Pretty weird that i din enjoy Bruce almighty the first one and a half time round but it turned out to be rather plesant when i watched it again yesterday.
Sorry if this post is turning out abit random, but i think i'm gonna have lotsa plesant memories about australia, the days come and go right now(guess that's just studying life), but some of the things i did and felt since my stay here has been rather.... unforgetable in a way i guess.
In the meantime, laundry and room is next on the agenda.
Starry nightz pp. Enjoy.
=)

Two words...

"One life"
Lol i really like that.

Living

SAVOUR the good,
TASTE the bad.
APPRECIATE the presence,
MISS the absence.
Hear the sound of your own heart beat...
Thats living...
What's the meaning of good, without the bad.
What's success, without failure?
What's life, without death?
Life is without fear.
Grab it.
Alive, we are.

Living

Good riddance

Ate 4 meat patties, 4 rolls of corn, 1 apple 1 pear 2 plates of rice for dinner
Lol, it's one of those days...

A bit part

Life is a bit part of the past, a bit part of the present and a bit part of the future.
We are a bit part of the people we know, everything thing is a bit part of everything.
Lol.

Love at first sight

Was doing house hunting with houston online, the houses and apartments that we saw were truely amazing and cheap.
We are so going to move out next sem, really do hope it happens.
*Wonders y so many people staying in college*
For the same price, it's a amazing amazing apartment or bungalow size house and being able to pig out everyday... compared to my bunk size room and exorbitant price i am paying and the so so food....
Maybe there's such a thing as growing up, it's about time...

Saturday blues...

Spent almost the whole day in my room today, staring at my notes and laptop. Life can be so....simple...
If there's a colour for today, it'd be grey. =/
Intuition is more likely to be correct or wrong? Interesting question that came up, i'm really sitting on the fence for this one...
Sigh the more i listen to TWINS, the more i feel like going for their concert... if the tix arn't already sold out by now.
Thinking of going for a karoke session after our test next friday, then again maybe i'm planning too far ahead.
Back to the notes........
Zzzzz....

Saturday blues

Spent almost the whole day in my room today, staring at my notes and laptop. Life can be so....simple...
If there's a colour for today, it'd be grey. =/
Intuition is more likely to be correct or wrong? Interesting question that came up, i'm really sitting on the fence for this one...
Sigh the more i listen to TWINS, the more i feel like going for their concert... if the tix arn't already sold out by now.
Thinking of going for a karoke session after our test next friday, then again maybe i'm planning too far ahead.
Back to the notes........
Zzzzz....

Colours

Life is full of colours, shall stop short of saying happiness and sadness, too strong words to use...
Jl's going back singapore today, hopes she will be able to haf fun...
On another note, sat next to T in lecture today, and managed to 'see' her around quite abit today, so i shall remain contented.
Sometimes i wonder, do we tell ourself to like/not to like?
Do we seriously feel?
I am not sure how much i can discount the former.....
Weird, what goes through my head.
Yesterday night's cafe performance was fantabulous, really enjoyed it, must give credit to the performers and perhaps the backstage pp ( But wtf, do sai kang for them when you are paying so much to stay here. Shouldn't you be paid instead? In something other than 'room points'?)
It's not my life to live.
Sometimes, maybe it's easier to lose yourself in your work/studies....
Oh yeah TWINS concert is on the 4th of june! At the crown. And the OMG thing is, that's 2 days before the start of my exams.
*Bashes head on wall*

Discomfort

ADH sucks, had a 'dose' of ADH today, can't produce urine, advised not to drink too much, I'm feeling weird atm, i think...i will just drink water and bloat up ...
Prob going catch cafe performance later, hopefully it'll be good, lol.
Really should do some serious studying soon, test is next friday, sigh, starting to be tired of them... GOt 20 for the last one, maybe because it was a easy one, well....
^_^
smiles
Need
a
break!

Hmmm

Wasn't really saying all guys go just for looks, it's more attraction- though looks play a part, i must say, even if u are pretty but all sultry and bitchy, no one will like u. There's more to initial attraction then looks, but looks is/are? a part.(There's no one in the world who can deny that)
Lol, love is such a different thing.
"Love is like having your heart being squeezed, very very slowly and gently... Just so u feel only the gentlest of ache.... " Lol i quote myself from sometime back. Being in love is this crazy emotion that runs through you, to know that your hearts are beating in unison, every second, never missing a beat, to know that all ever need is each other.
Lol, now you know why my blog sounds like a girl's blog, i must admit, o sound very cheesy.
*whacks own head* -i put guys to shame. =p
Lol, what is character, chemistry? All these ideals, the idea of a perfect relationship. Love is without thoughts, there's no time for ideals, for thoughts. Feel with your heart, not your brain. The brain is for studying, not for stuff relating to love. It's only when u feel with your heart that you know you are alive.
Love is not about making things work, it's about finding parts that actually fit so that they work. =P
Life is about love, or searching for it....
=)

Wow

34 days to exams? Lol, thanks jiahui for having this countdown on her msn, omg, that is so near!
Then again, sem 1 isn't too difficult, if I'm allowing myself to complain, then i'm probably be much worse in the semesters to come.
I'm like perpatualy counting down time in life, first it was the ord dates, exams, flying back to sing, life is about counting down, before we know it, we're done........
One thing that makes Singaporean guys unique, there is no pretense between us.(Well maybe there is, but much less) Thing about the army, it strips away some of your layers, such that you are more truthful to yourself
Lol, weiyong, as u will put it, guys goes after girls for their looks, (to the individual's extent), regardless of what girls beleives about looks having not matter and wanting guys to not judge them by their looks, it will never happen, never in a million years.
Attraction is one thing, love is another though.
Thing i'm trying to put across, we can come up with the lies, the honey words, but we don't, or tend not to. Ask any guy who has gone through Ns...you'll get the same answer.
So to any girl out there reading this, the world is full of shallowness(lol invented the word), a guy without any decent guy rapport can only be s0o much lol.....
Content with the truth, and maybe you'll find the world much more pleasant.
And last thing. TWINS are performing live in Australia!!!!!
Saw the poster today in uni, I'm having serious serious thoughts about going,
Word of the day-dilema...
^_^

F...

THe first day i get my internet back, i come in to blog and it screws up on me...
Lost my lengthy post, so u've gotta do with this shorter one.Tired, blurry day today, din help i got back from college square at 12+ yesterday.
Hp test-so lucky i predicted the question this morning so it was-smooth....
Can't wait to get back to sing, having lots of plans for shopping and all tat...
Fun guyz..and gals..

Sorry

Have not blogged for a week, really sorry, internet screwed up at IH...
Blogging in jiawei's room atm, yipee, next location on my blogging spree lol. Trinity college!
Crashing the trinity dinner today, din study much today, omg, gotta mug hjard tonight to make up for the hp test.
=P