Nothing and Everything

Nothing comes immediately,
espcially the emotional kind,
release or grip,
take your time,
use your space.

Everything is gradual,
everything is what u know,
not what you'll get.

Don't worry...

SOmetimes people trip over the small things in life, even the smallest stone can be the greatest stumbling block.
If you've got the heart, even a boulder will not stop you in your path.
So my friends, be strong, be strong.
SOme things are important, some things are not.
Weigh the scales in your mind and heart,
do not let everything burden you.
Our story is still being written,
the pages are still being turned,
tears, blood, may have stained it,
but each day a new word, a new line is being written.
What we take from the past,
are lessons in the head,
and memories in the heart,
not the scars, not the setbacks.
Life in melbourne,
is a new chapter, and we're the characters.
Evreyone has their problems,
past, present, future?
Coming to terms with it is the most important thing.
Facing it together is the next.
When times are tough,
we'll be there.
When your strength fails you,
we wun let you fall.
Sometimes i dunno whether i will break too,
and there are days when i just get so tired,
when life seems to be just a extended dream.
Sometimes i think i should/could just let go,
I hope i never will.
I know i won't allow myself if i could.
Doing your best,not giving up, is all you can give,
to your parents, your friends,
Know that that is enough...
to jiawei, sometimes you just live and learn.
Take heart from this,
my friend told me today,
to do well in medicine,
is not only to study hard, but,
most importantly treat pp well, with goodness from within.
Maybe that's what life is about as well,
to be genuinely good to others.
Dun be too hard on yourself,
Our story still lives on,
and we can still make our own happy ending.
On another note, i met so many friends today.
Was just thinking how much i miss my polo friends in the gym,
and then i met jeremy at bugis,
and got back in contact with so many of them over msn.
It's a happy day today haha.
Suddenly you're all back in my life again. =)
After so many donkey years.... Eight? Nine?
And no, i'm not attached atm.......
Sorry if i sounded like i was,
I just felt like expressing some of my... appreciation? Thanks?
Whatever it is, just dun get freak out by my openess.
A blog is where i express feelings after all.
Anyway it's been a mixed time for me in singapore so far,
too many different kinds of emotions.
Alright, time to end this disjointed post, probelm with msning and blogging at the same time,
just wish,
everyone,
genuine happiness,
Live,
with a open heart.
^_^

A real song =)

BIZARRE LOVE TRIANGLE -Frente

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then we'd never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

Like this song... Finally d/l it today
so happy...
^_^
Bought alot of dance hits too,
Moonlight shadow
God is a girl
Far away from home

SO nice, even lala was dancing.

I think

I think it's you who's helped me heal my wounded heart,
u were the one who taught me how to love again,
u were the one who showed me that love is bigger than myself,
u were the one who taught me not to be selfish,
Maybe a part of me still wanted to believe,
maybe a part of me has never let go,
maybe a part of me was hiding,
Lost the tightness between my eyes,
the shallow sleep i've been having,
the feeling that life is mundane,
an emptiness that nothing could fill.
The air smells much fresher,
the grass and trees much greener,
the stars so much more beautiful.
But yes, i am whole again.
For that i thank you,
and ask for nothing more.
I seek no answers,
for i've found my own.
^_^

No this is not a song =)
And yes, i wrote it lol.

Cool!

Addidas has this thing that allows u to customise your own shoe, according to your feet.
Not only will it fit your feet "perfectly",
u can customise the colour combination(from over a 100!)
and u can have your names embroidered on the tongue.
I wanna one!
Takes 4 weeks to have it made, and there's bound to be a crowd since it's so new.
Well, maybe i'll hafta make a december comeback.
=)
Oh yeah, and apparently some prankster filled up the fountain outside ngee ann city with soap or sth and the whole fountain became so foamy.
Saw the photo in the papers, it actually looked fantastic.
I'm feeling empty suddenly,
i dunno why, or i dun wanna know why.
What do i choose to believe?
=/

Whole day at home

=/
Had a rest at home today,
think some things through,
maybe i should go out more often.
check some people out maybe.
Must exercise some self control,
less i shop too much too.
Found my phantom of the opera cd today, =)
love it...
Sometimes i feel like i wanna know what the future holds,
but i guess,
everything's a part of life.
Things happens,
things change,
people change,
i change,
What does the future hold?
=/

=)

Removed the music from my blog finally =)
Lol, talk about finally getting things done.

Lol

Sometimes, i feel like i've never left singapore, sometimes i feel like i've been away for a million years.
There is the sense of familiarity, and also the sense of unfamiliarity.
Friends are exactly as i remembered.
Family is still the same.
The things i do is still the same.
But ah, things just look a little different.
Shops look different, people look darker, young primary school kids holding hands, young adults with the glum look on their face, everyone looking stressed for some reason or another.
Sometimes u try, but u can only go so far. Well, at least you've tried, and you won't regret.
Do i have any regrets? Sure i do, but what's the point in dwelling so much over them?
Gotta reach out into the light, cause you'll never see in the dark.
FOr now, young adults we will remain, still grappling with some forms of personal beliefs about life, being wary and tired of life, getting disillusioned. Think at least half of the people u know have their own issues.
All i can say is,
never stop looking,
cause when you do,
it's all over.
And when you've found it,
do your best to hold on to it.
Life is short,
appreciate the past,
cherish the present,
look forward to the future.

Have fun everyone, be you in singapore or melbourne...
^_^

Different

Things r different now, it has. Clothes, handphones, blings blings, and i've only been away for a while.
Couldn't even remember that the it's a 6 digit pin for the bank, embarrassed myself punching in the wrong code twice. Well, that's how it is.
Wanna buy alot of vcds, clothes, maybe gadgets...
Arggh, gotta create a wishlist...
wallet.
shirts.
handphone?
visor.
shoes?
gifts. =)

Am restless over something,
am missing something,
am wanting alot of things,
am doing something.

Sorry for speaking in riddles, I'm just in da mood. =)

Why like that?

The air is so thick now, lol, can't breathe =)...
I feel I'm no longer really a part of the life of pp here,
my place is in melbourne...
Friends and family we will remain,
words unspoken,
feelings unchanged,
but i move on.
Going out later today, winder how the places i use to know have changed =)
So have i, have not been a long time, but when u embrace something whole heartedly,
i guess u...change..
Oh yeah, last few days in melbourne were really fun,
trekking around the city,
msn-ing together
and late night chats.
=)
Going out to meet friends later, and (maybe) hitting the gym.
Well, that's the agenda for me in Singapore i guess...
Till laterz...

Back

In singapore, finally.
2 words.
Tired. Haven't been sleeping in much in days.
Hot. Words can't describe how bad it is.
Will be back later.
=)

Warmth

Is in the heart,
that's y i'm never cold.
=P

Always believe

TO take it in your stride...
nothing,
will ever bring me down,
if i dun want to be brought down.
I believe.

Watched Mr and Mrs Smith last night, wasn't too bad, not exceptional either

"If i have place in my heart for only you,
and you have place in your heart for only me,
our hopes and dreams are for each other,
and there's only us against the world,
only you and me till the end of time,
Then that's love."

Always and forever?

A blessed life.
One can only dream of.....

Arggh

I feel I'm at a big roundabout at the moment.
Life is going aound in circles
Sian

Like

Really like this statement from health practice,
"If there had been a chance, i was there to give her that chance."
And that's really all that matters.
Cheers.

The bittersweet life

Life is a one way road,
can only go forward.
Life is bitter and sweet,
just like dark chocolate?
Many things can be dropped,
only people will stay by you forever.
Does it matter how much u achieve?
In the end,
what matters only,
are the ones beside u u finish life with,
and the memories in your head.
Dun need anything to take away,
just need to give everything away.
Life must end,
just as it must go on,
live so much, love so much,
cause that's all you can do.
Smile people.

=(

Not as strong,
not as mature,
not as secure,
not as fantastic
as I think should be...
Maybe,
still young boy after all.
Lol.....
^_^
=P
=/
=l....
=^P
=^/
X/

Calm

Haiz, I'm feeling extra peaceful, and it's exams on monday?
What has gotten into me?
I feel I'm just a spectator of my own life right now...
watching it go by, watching myself struggle...
Listening to Dong fuong puo on repeat mode these days, dunno what has gotten into me, it's putting me into a more and more nostalgic mode...
Had a pretty fun day yesterday...
First there was this exchange of dreams...
Secondly there was me getting hugged by a total stranger in union house.
There was this time freeze for about 5 sec where everyone was in a state of shock.
Thirdly there was me blurting out secrets in succession.
Lots of other whacky things too, like me making everyone fishing out money in subway when i just went to the ATM, Tim using his sixth sense on jiawei, Jl trying to drink her tiger balm oil....
Haiz, life is so random sometimes.

"Wishing,
I would find someone to walk and enjoy the beautiful weather with,
someone whom i can share all my troubles with,
someone whom will understand and feel with me,
someone to live this life with,
someone whom i can give me heart to,
someone to do crazy things with,
someone ...."
No point going on and on lol,
everyone's getting a little crazy near exams, have to maintain some self-control before i get haunted by all my crazy posts....